Thursday, March 17, 2005

on my way.... don care wat destination... i jus wanna be wit my frens... @ 2:17:00 PM

all started from last last nite 0000hrs sharp...mi still conferencin wit ah ma.. ah gong and michelle... tokin abt junlong... well... sam went to test him... i got nothin to say... really... i was there... listening to wat they goin to reply him and wat he replied... and i started thinkin wat he told mi for the past 49 days... den as u all noe... i'm a crybaby mah... tears of coz roll down itself easily... den michelle told mi one think i'll always remember...-grace, u put too much trust on him liao... den i was like... think again... den began to cry lor... donno why lah... i now crying writing this... den at 0130+ i smsed him say i wan to end this relationship... i didnt tell him the reason... i jus say i wanna concentrate on my studies... den i tot he'll reply mi soon... den i end the call at 0200... i sit at the corner tot of many many things... i flooded 2 pillows... finally got to sleep at 0240... woke up at 0800 yesterday... really cannot get to sleep lor... dono why.. den read one comic den fell asleep woke up at 1000... he reply mi say he don wan break... i really donno wat to say lor... den like... keep thinkin back makes mi real tired and keep wanna cry... i don wan this wan lor... i'm a cheerful, happy-go-lucky gal everybody noe... i don wanna cry... but i cannot help it... tears really roll down itself de... so i flooded my blanket in the mornin... den went to meet sam and shoon... they pei mi go cut my hair... den got support from ah gong.. jeremiah.. weisheng.. and potato... i'm really touched when they say they'll always be there for mi... and don let anyone buwee mi lor... haix... den reach home play mahjong wit sam and jia hui den got a little nap... nite came michelle call mi and i started crying again... flooded my blanket again... almost let my dad see mi crying sia... haix... i don wan to let my parents worry abt mi... i jus need time lor... i really donno i wanna continue this relationship anot... my hart's really shattered... i wanna go back to wat i am in 2004... happiness... alot new frens... good results... haix... don feel like continuin liao... hope i can catch a real good sleep now... God i really need ur help...
i.hate.to.make.decisions.

Thursday, March 17, 2005

on my way.... don care wat destination... i jus wanna be wit my frens... @ 2:17:00 PM

all started from last last nite 0000hrs sharp...mi still conferencin wit ah ma.. ah gong and michelle... tokin abt junlong... well... sam went to test him... i got nothin to say... really... i was there... listening to wat they goin to reply him and wat he replied... and i started thinkin wat he told mi for the past 49 days... den as u all noe... i'm a crybaby mah... tears of coz roll down itself easily... den michelle told mi one think i'll always remember...-grace, u put too much trust on him liao... den i was like... think again... den began to cry lor... donno why lah... i now crying writing this... den at 0130+ i smsed him say i wan to end this relationship... i didnt tell him the reason... i jus say i wanna concentrate on my studies... den i tot he'll reply mi soon... den i end the call at 0200... i sit at the corner tot of many many things... i flooded 2 pillows... finally got to sleep at 0240... woke up at 0800 yesterday... really cannot get to sleep lor... dono why.. den read one comic den fell asleep woke up at 1000... he reply mi say he don wan break... i really donno wat to say lor... den like... keep thinkin back makes mi real tired and keep wanna cry... i don wan this wan lor... i'm a cheerful, happy-go-lucky gal everybody noe... i don wanna cry... but i cannot help it... tears really roll down itself de... so i flooded my blanket in the mornin... den went to meet sam and shoon... they pei mi go cut my hair... den got support from ah gong.. jeremiah.. weisheng.. and potato... i'm really touched when they say they'll always be there for mi... and don let anyone buwee mi lor... haix... den reach home play mahjong wit sam and jia hui den got a little nap... nite came michelle call mi and i started crying again... flooded my blanket again... almost let my dad see mi crying sia... haix... i don wan to let my parents worry abt mi... i jus need time lor... i really donno i wanna continue this relationship anot... my hart's really shattered... i wanna go back to wat i am in 2004... happiness... alot new frens... good results... haix... don feel like continuin liao... hope i can catch a real good sleep now... God i really need ur help...
i.hate.to.make.decisions.